Vanditaa's blog

What I experienced this morning was something that I had never experienced before, something that left me in a completely different state of mind for few hours after it happened, something that made me wonder a lot if things about life itself and something that came as a big lesson for me myself…what I experienced this morning was death of a middle aged man within a matter of minutes right in front of my own eyes! I boarded a train last night to travel back to Lucknow from New Delhi, and I was glad to have a side upper berth to myself with no interference's to face from the people sitting on the lower berths. I moved up and comfortably sat chit chatting on the phone and messaging my friends till the train moved. Within that half an hour the other people on the berth in front of me were have little conversations amongst themselves and cracking small little jokes about the weather, about electricity in the city and so on and so forth. After everyone settled I requested someone fr

Bored with my daily routine, and it being a Sunday I planned to go out to shop a little last week! On my way I stopped the auto fella to have a look at the plant nursery to see if I can get something to put in my terrace area. I was over whelmed by the way people were engrossed looking after plants there, someone was spraying water over the leaves while someone was mixing the manure with some insecticides, looking around I was about to step on a tiny sapling when one vendor interrupted me and said “Madam watch out, it will die” “Oops Sorry” I said and stepped aside. I was tempted to take some saplings for my home I sat there for some half an hour where I asked them about the different saplings they had and took three of them. After which I took some instructions on how I should nurture them, how many times to water, how much sunlight is needed etc so that they can grow the best. Within that very short span itself I felt the plants are alive! They need to be taken care of, they need t

In the middle of some conversation that I was having with one of my friends, she said “Why don’t you ask your husband to relocate to Delhi, your life will be much more happening there!” Is it?? I wondered! Fortunately I have stayed in many cities across the country and I have visited many countries outside India as well, so I have a decent level of understanding as to how different cultures are, and how things work in places other than my own hometown. Visiting any place for a week or two for tourism is one aspect of any city and working or studying there and following a daily routine there is another aspect of it. When do we call a city or our lives “happening”? As per the modern mans dictionary I suppose it’s when you slog like a donkey in your weekdays but your weekends are all about dance and booze! When you cook lunch and dinners on the weekdays at your own house, but your weekends are full of pizzas and other junk! Or maybe when weekdays are all about routine and boring work

Living our destiny or directing our own destiny?! So here I am back in Lucknow my hometown ..and once again I am back to the struggles which the city gets for any dental surgeon, and then of course the little struggles of starting everything fresh again   ! It has been more than ten days today since I came here and all that I have been doing for all this while is living in the past, and living in what cant be ! An imaginary world ! which is there with me all the time ! Its nothing but living in what if .. what if I didn’t resign my job, what if I was adamant in not getting married, what if I was settled somewhere else ! I don’t know how of many other people think like that !   So what am I basically deriving out of it .. nothing at all.. and what am I loosing by it .. i guess I am losing everything in the present ! Time and again we read way too many quotes and articles on “LIVING IN THE PRESENT” but then why is it that it is still the least that we do ! One reason which I could

It was in between when I had got tired of sitting in my ac room and browsing the internet that I got out of my room and happened to peep out of the window, where apparently there are vegetable vendors. I looked at a child, ya child because he looked like he was still in his teenage counting some money sitting on a mat where he had laid his vegetables. He sits there every day I have noticed from some 10am in the morning till I guess a ten in the night to earn whatever little he does throughout the day in the blazing UP sun to just earn a living when other children of his age may be cribbing about not having the latest phone, or may not having too many likes for some random post on facebook.. I mean because that’s what probably a rich persons teenager problems are now a days. And why blame them look at me how different was I myself I thought, thinking all day when will my result come, thinking weather I ll get the job I want, and what to watch on the TV !! I felt like a waste when I a

I have been visiting this orphanage near my residence for almost more than seven months now ! It’s a brilliant feeling of course ..people say we visit there to help them, to do something for them .. but then I guess I visit for my own selfish reasons ! Each time that I go there I learn something new about life.. each time that I go there I feel richer and happier ! They say empty mind is a devils workshop! And then when you have a lot many negatives going on in your life you better put yourself in some constructive work which helps you overcome lonely times and silly thoughts ! Hyderabad was kind to me when I came here first but then since past few months and past few days in specific this city is just eating me up..perhaps I have never felt this lonely in my life ever ! Same daily routine, friends who are professionals first and friends later..silly talks and politics in the work place ! Well this is not how i had planned to be in my life ! Perhaps this sense of lonliness was hove

After a long tug of war that was going on in my head for I guess months together, I finally submitted my resignation from my current organization. And to my surprise the moment I received a date for my relieving everything around me somewhat changed. The entire experience of my moving to a strange city all by myself, and exploring things people and possibilities hovered over me. All my experiences, happy moments and good gestures by people I met on the way made me a little emotional every day. And at my workplace as well, everyone was much more expressive, and admiring for both my work and my attitude, in short, people became a little more expressive and I became a little more receptive. If both I and my colleagues would have been the same ways while I was regular wouldn’t we have made it much more memorable! I think for some reason we all are a little hesitant to look at the good side of anything, until of course we know we wont have it anymore. Or in other words it wouldn’t be w

Hey Wait! Whom are you trying to impress! Be yourself … true relations are always effortless! Last evening was really good ! Because I think I found myself back ! I always say the worst you can do to yourself is getting influenced by something and someone which makes you lose your identity. But then I guess I had myself gotten influenced by Hyderbad city and some people I found here which had dragged me away from my own true self. Fortunately I always stayed away from the so called “rat race” during my entire student life! I agree I have been an over-enthusiastic scholar! But then that has been my nature, the little nerdy variety of candidates with spectacles on their eyes and with schedule in their hand, but luckily with no interest in others doing the same. I have had my own set of goals, my own set of regulations, my own set of definitions for work and fun. And trust me I have been happy! I don’t know what made me follow the crowd in the city of Hyderabad! May be a sense of lo