“Hell! Where did I keep my keys?” I screamed
and pushed some things away hoping to find the keys to my Dental clinic. It was
eight in the night; we had to push out of the house for a movie at nine, but
before that, I had to put the shutter
down for my clinic which is right there on the way. I was getting impatient and annoyed at the same time. Even my
husband was looking around, but he showed no such agitation like me, “relax” he
said and continued humming and searching at the same time. To add to my
agitation my phone rang, it was a close friend’s
call, “what’s your problem now?” I answered in an angry tone! I am not sure why
but I did, and continued heating up and threw my phone away.
People who know me closely know that I wasn’t in the best frame of my mind for
more than two years. I conveniently blamed others for my problems, I conveniently
switched my moods to good, bad and ugly, I conveniently accepted that it’s not
me it’s my adverse circumstances! I was convenient with the way I was until of course, it struck me that day that I was actually
imbibing these small, little changes. Until it struck me that day that my
circumstances will definitely change, but by then these changes in me would have
become a convenient part of my personality!
The personalities that we carry in the long
run are nothing but an accumulation of the good and the bad that we experience during
our respective journeys of life. We are all born quite similar, aren’t we? Wouldn’t we make our lives better if
we discontinue anything which we know isn’t good, and is not worth carrying for
a lifetime, as early as we notice it? It isn’t
easy, but yes it can be practiced if we try to constantly introspect ourselves.
If we stop giving reasons for the way we behave. If we accept that we too can
be wrong! We are all escapists in some way or the other. We all have a tendency
to follow the path of least resistance and tread happily on it. We all have a
pre-cooked explanation of every wrong that we do
because ironically our ultimate aim is to prove to our own selves that we can’t
be wrong.
Do take some time out of your busy schedules to
visit your own self regularly; to assure that the devil within you doesn’t outgrow
your true personality! And oh yes, that
night my husband found the keys and we made it to the movie quite on time, except
that I had a heavy head and couldn’t enjoy the movie night as much. But ever
since then I have made sure that I have the best of outings. And as far as my
circumstances are concerned well they are more or less the same and I am glad
they are because they teach me a new
lesson every day!
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